Anro: There Was Nothing Left

I looked for it everyday, some clue that it was still there somehow. Some little hint of anything remaining. A quirk of an eyebrow, the subtle twitch of a muscle as my arm met yours. Not even the wrinkle that furrowed above your strong brow bone when you could tell that something was bothering me just by the sound of my voice.
There was nothing left.
A blue shirt, the beat up old doc marten boots, the black leather jacket. Hidden behind the post I watched, waiting for you to turn, aching to see your face, and then you did. It was the most breathtaking sight I’d ever seen. Strong jaw, straight nose, and those damn dimples.
There was nothing left.
I’d give almost anything to have that first glimpse back. Although I’d give pretty much anything to hear the laugh that created those dimples. The first time I heard it my heart nearly jumped through my throat. My only thoughts in the moment were that I wished I could see your eyes light up too.
There was nothing left.
It was cold before it got warm again and as the seasons changed so did our story, like chapters in an author’s mind. It wasn’t always easy, and it wasn’t always hard but it was ours. Until one day it wasn’t.
There was nothing left.
I’d never known you any differently than you were that first night. Laughing, joking, flirting as the hours slipped past. That was the easy part, falling into your rhythm your habits. I molded my life to yours and before we knew it it was ours.
There was nothing left.
I didn’t realize how fluid the days and nights would become. But then he was there, flirting, laughing and joking, like you used to. It wasn’t supposed to happen. You made mistakes too, mine just mattered more.
There was nothing left.
It happened a few times. I’m not sure when you picked up on it but you did. You noticed the longer than normal shifts, the way I rushed to the shower. You had molded your life just as much I had and somehow I’d missed that. Until there was nothing right. And then…
There was nothing left.

2 thoughts on “Anro: There Was Nothing Left

  1. Oh, this was deep… I’m still a bit shaken and pining for a happy ending like crazy… But I know that stuff happens in life and sometimes some things are irreversible…

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