AnRo: I wish I could see you

I wish I could see you.
The distinct smell of lavender and cherries assaults my nostrils as I notice someone walking by. I can hear the pants leg dragging behind one foot but not the other. I’m waiting for my brother in my damn car again. I’ve found that I do a lot of waiting these days.
I wish I could see you.
The first time you really notice I’m flummoxed. It didn’t even take you long. You’re pretty damn perceptive because I’ve gotten good at this. I wish I could see the look on your face. You don’t stumble over it at all like others do. You have fallen right into conversation with me like this isn’t even a thing.
I wish I could see you.
I know you’re changing only feet from me and while I’ve felt every curve, every valley and peak of your body I really just wish I could see it. You’ve never shied away from my touch but that just isn’t the same for me. It is something I will never get over.
I wish I could see you.
I hear my brothers breath hitch at the same time I hear our family and friends ooh and awe and I know you must be a sight. I know you’re gorgeous, my brothers have told me on multiple occasions just how damn lucky I am.
I wish I could see you.
The way you laugh when we do something so mundane such as wash dishes together and I make a joke. The dimples that I’m almost positive appear then, god, if only for one minute I could see that.
I wish I could see you.
I pick up the nervousness in your voice instantly as you hold it out for me. Yes, there are two of them there, you assure me as I turn it over and over in my hands. When I wipe away those happy tears streaming down your cheek with my thumb I wonder just how much harder this will be for me too.
I wish I could see you.
I’m not sure at first what my hands are feeling but as you describe it to me, my heart aches to see it, to see you, or that small screen. I can hear it too, quick and steady as we listen also to the techs voice.
I wish I could see you.
The way your body feels against mine now, it’s different. You don’t fit against me just right anymore, but this is even better. The first time I feel the movement I’m in awe of every little sensation.
I wish I could see you.
I’m waiting anxiously for that first sound, the first wail as I hold your hand. I am mesmerized by your bravery, the sheer will you possess to make it through this. I can only imagine how beautiful you look right now.
I wish I could see you.
The weight of you in my arms, the smell of you assaulting my nose. The way you squirm. I’ve helped to create this perfect joy I feel. In the same thought though, I wish I could see you.

5 thoughts on “AnRo: I wish I could see you

  1. Nice little vignettes. I especially like the last three paragraphs! Great job AnRo! It never ceases to amaze me how different our takes are on the same prompt!

  2. Ooooh, Miss AnRo…

    Short. Sweet. Intimate in a very different way.
    We rarely see married MCs post-wedding much less having babies.
    Adored this one.

    Hugs,
    Ann

  3. Sooo beautiful and heartfelt!! Such a long period of time (from the first meeting till birth) in so few words carrying so much emotion!
    You keep your reader so wonderfully engaged while not spelling everything directly to them (like here, for instance: I pick up the nervousness in your voice instantly as you hold it out for me. Yes, there are two of them there) but letting them figure out by themselves what you mean.
    Thank you so much!

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